some poems... by me..

 

Procrastination

I want to consume you

in a room with no windows

no view of the past with no

view of the future

just me and your self-full Spirit

leave your super ego at the door

which is open til Im yours

 

Im not going to wait any longer

than I must to complete

my journey to my defeat

at your feet I will take my seat

& wait for your soul to speak

to me - thru your mouth so sweet

in my mind--- Delete

 

But I cant just bleep you out of my memory

My imagination seeded too deep somehow

Now I keep on repeating

my picture book moments of sweeping

emotion that wont notion to show

in your person til Im sure

how you feel- and that you feel for me

 

So dont be suprised if i dont disguise

my feelings for you I'm not hiding

from what makes me human

& what makes you dear to me

dont be uneasy with these words

which are thawing my freezing brain

from the suspention of my feelings

 

I wish I could skate across your lake

to be with you , foresake the worlds

you are afraid of

Id like to save you some day

& return the favor

and let you taste the full flavour

of my world which is rare

 

 


Stop!

 

This, this what? What is this anyway?

ANd he who said that its not happening

is mis taken, for saken and simply wrong

for me...to judge his warmth is a

mis guided tour of my own mind

I suppose, he does want something

from someone. Just doesnt want this.

So Stop it, THIS thats not for me!

 

aug 23 2010


 

The Tears I Cry

Sometimes the tears I cry aren't mine
that may sound weird and its hard to define
but believe you me drawing the line is easy

My tears are backed by an ocean too deep of emotion
too sweet to share here
your tears are cold on my cheek and the well runs weak
 

As the energy that surges behind yours bound
and pass up through my body and when they're unwound
breathing through surges and guiding them round
to the light where peace can be found

My tears burn my cheek and they are definitely mine
I know by the sting left behind and the sigh
brings relief from the grief that I feel ever time

so accept the light I've sent with these lines
and feel the release by the time you've resigned
from reading. I LOVE you! x Be kind to your self and unwind :)

Aug 03 2010


 

 

Its Lonely being the only one awake...

 

Its like Im waiting for the world to awaiken from a

slumber, I too have been under,

 

Do you want to know what I know?

Its like the paper that you write on isnt white on

the inside, its black and

 

the square that you frame round you're picture

Is a circle not worth the moons reflection

and those that guide us are out to

Price us for the hard sell not protection

There is nothing worthy of trusting in these days when

the cure is illegal and the illness is

the lesson that the seagull drops on its flight over

Our plight global what a blessing!

 

july 28

 


 

 

Strikiing Lines

 

Striking lines through words

strung together from thoughts

half worked out on paper

stained by bricks and morter

from estates that slaughter

youth and her daughter from their future

wiping slates clean with waves higher than trees

who's free now?

me and dis-ease

 

July 20 2010

 


 

Glass Half Empty

 

Is that me in that glass

half empty and fast

Knocking walls in my prison

Let me out, I cant listen 

leave me in, Im just trippin

I dont know-

too loud! You're too noisy

You know nothing about me

Im missing, unknown, who am I

Im gone, gone home, alone.

 

july 20 2010

 



I feel

 

I feel kinda serine, kinda suspended

above wire barbed with spikes covering a bed blended

with flowers and forests and trees taller than towers

from here I can see far lands far from showers

of gold raining down on fields filled with oil

Whats the point to it all?

Am i about to fall?

 

july 20 2010

 


 

This is our Mammy

 

Geysers shaping rocks and earth fading black

burnt and singed , parched inside and out.

Let her breath let her bleed loving tears

Into poisoned rivers of speeding death and greed

Feed her love with weeds, plant seeds

Grow freedom, freedom from pain and addiction

Freedom from the gains of affliction

freedom from the crowds and hoards

of zombie beats and robot streets,

Androids meeting once a week maybe twice,

only after some whiskey and ice

 

Unable to speak or interact sober

so over and over and over we go

making the same problems of emotional woe

choosing partners based on drugs of choice

making babies without a voice

feeding the machine by riding the train

loosing the battle.. need to switch lanes

Take back our power, know we exist

This is our Mammy, how can we resist?

Cut the chains, ropes and leads that tie her at the wrists

Plant, Grow and Harvest Weeds ,restore our mammy's bliss.

 

July 17 2010

 


 

Egg Shells

Shells of eggs and shrapnel
Lay shattered at my door
moving through now slowly
feet firmly on the floor

Sliding feet forward
One slowly at a time
Gliding through the debris
Only half of which is mine

Spirits race around me
whispering words which inspire
energies pulling me closer
ever closer to the fire

Bodies circling in orbit
Synchrinicity playing its part
All cogs turning timelessly
in order and in Art

july 13 2010

 


 

Sweet Thing

 

It may not be

the end of my world

or a straightened curl

or a fighting bulldog

in an enlightened pearl

of wisdom and words of solitude

and soft touch

 

But it means something

to the someone here

It means a lot to me

that you stayed to clear

up the mess made

by the trade which lended blame

but not much

 

Sweet thing so blind and scared

who dared to leave me

cause he cared so much

not to loose me completely

Well Ive lost and am lost

but once more Ill pay cost

to none and move on.

 

Sweet thing.

 

july 11 2010


 

Tonight

 

Ring me!

Don't ponder,

dont wait any longer

dont think about it

dont be indecisive

dont be unsure

dont reconsider

dont put it off

dont wait til later

dont be afraid

dont hold back

dont give up

dont let go

dont say no

dont not go

Tonight

 

Feb 2009

 


Into Silence

 

I get lost in my head

sometimes in a space, floating endlessly

Just getting glimpses of conversations and occassions

Yet to be dreamt of

yet to be had and still to come

I dont come back

Sometimes from those places

For times unrecorded in space

In my head, In dreams in my bed

escape from the silence

youre not dead!

 

Then escape from you're silence

become you're quest

In turbulent weather

So much to invest

New eyes again are opened

Wide and then

The roundabout continues

to turn night to den

and light to grey

never really knowing why or when

the ignition should spark or quench

into silence.

 

Aug 29 2008

 


 

un named

 

What the cards say...

- Is it true?

Will I have the strength

-to face the void of you?

They say I will

I will have and do

 

But my love,

What about it

Can't you stay with me

Here today, tonight and share

With me -you're love Not her,

just once more pretend

its still alive - for me

 

Im feeling wreckless and stranded

and branded as a fool,

Im shredded and naked

and hurt and bruised

and you, these words are not for you,

no more, but you would do.

 

July 11th 2008